a temporary hole.

the night is coming to a close.

I'm too afraid to close my eyes because the fear of you being gone when i open them haunts me.

I'm not ready to be alone, facing this cruel, harsh world without you.

please don't ever forget everything we've been through. You really were the twin sister i never had.

You mean the world to me & I thank my Heavenly Father every single day for placing you in my life.

You've made me a better person all around.

You have been through it all with me, no matter how silly the matter was.

All the nights crying together, cursing the backstabbers, laughing uncontrollably until we pee our pants, being extremely impatient, being on loratab at the same time, every single sleepover we say were staying up all night, then crashing at 12:30:)

all of the money spent on gas between the both of us driving from orem to springville, springville to orem. All the twizzlers and sharing an energy drink, taking way too many pictures, too much time spent on facebook, going through teenage heartache, being played by every guy, being huge fat heifers, you being wayy too good to me during this dumb surgery, PMS-ing together, walmart tantrums, sharing all our music, dancing crazy in the cars, always matching, too many nasty dances, SHE-HAW, pranking, fake staches, stealing construction cones, sports games, the fact that you & i have NEVER EVER been in a fight, too many "to do" lists, never finishing our "to do" lists, soccer, too many crushes, JC's, just straight up KE$HA, dramatized-bratty-insecure girls, injuries, sun glasses obsession, road trips, plans we never finished, job searching, nasty waitress job, skipping school to go to each other schools, hooking each other up with friends (never seemed to turn out in our favor), lesbians, the "tool box,"  spooning, frooties, lookouts, hobos, way too much sarcasm, Last Friday Night, threatening to run away from home & living with each other, hot pots, star gazing all night long, & loving each other unconditionally.

I cant thank you enough for everything you have done for me.

I hope you realise how much you mean to me, you are the best thing that happened to me.

I can honestly say i have no idea where i would be if you had not been in my life.

you're the reason i made it through my high school years,

the reason i made it through my trials,

the reason i made it through my darkest times,

the reason I'm here today.

you're my angel.

don't ever forget that.

So go kick some freakin butt.

& get married in Hawaii :)

[pinky promise]

Maids of Honor no matter the circumstances

Love You Forever & Always

Yours truly,

               Panda bear.